Just yesterday, I was enjoying the fourth phase of my relationship with CitiBike, New York’s bicycle sharing program. I’ve since pressed on through phase five this afternoon, and I write this late in the evening in the final sixth phase.

New Yorkers who presume pedestrian rights extend to themselves on a heavy, metal bike. But it’s also this city’s gift to the unemployed, which is one of things I've realized through my emotional journey with this simple idea.
Phase 1: Skepticism. $100 in New York buys you nothing, right? It certainly cannot buy a yearlong service that’s worth a damn (annual membership to CitiBike = $100). I refuse to use it. Besides, I don’t want to contribute any more to the cholesterol of this city’s transit system or risk my life with imminent death since I don’t look cool in a helmet.
Phase 2: Justification. In unemployment mathematics, if I can substitute 20 round-trips on the subway with quick bike rides, it’s paid for, and anything beyond is straight cheddar. If I’m being honest with myself, which I don’t like doing, I’d factor in cab fares and I’d break even in five bikes.
Phase 3: Excitement. OK, I’m in. I love the idea of using, abusing and ditching the bike like a rebound relationship. I'll get in better shape. I’ll use the bike to buy healthier products at Whole Foods instead of the similarly priced crap at D’Agostino’s. I’ll bike to interviews and meetings in midtown. So long scorching crowded subway. Arrivederci you crazy cabbies.
Phase 4: Freedom. After two attempts to find an available bike in midtown, I’m cruising along the West Side Highway with the wind in my hair, the sun on my skin and a smile on my face. I ignore the unreasonable amount of derogatory comments directed to me as a generalized CitiBiker from those on road bikes. I contemplate a civil bikes movement. When I close my eyes I feel like I’m not in New York anymore, but rather as if I was hugging the Columbia River in Portland, Ore—ah! Got to keep those eyes open!

while arguing with an employee to open the locked razor pantry. I expect a miracle when I return to the docks. No such luck, and although the fat woman is gone, there are several other lingering weirdos pretending to look at their phones. I’m broken. It’s almost 6 PM and I need to be home if for no other reason than to no longer be in midtown. I speed-walk to the E, cursing CitiBike, cursing myself for being so foolish. I descend from 20 percent humidity to 100. The looks I got from the competing CitiBikers were nothing compared to those of the 6,000 faces already jam-packed on the train when I stuff myself inside.
Phase 6: Acceptance. How long should something enjoyable and convenient last in a city of nine million people? Until around the time you hear about it. New York has a way of chewing up good ideas. It may let you enjoy it once, just enough to get a taste, then it spits it out into one giant hassle. Living in this city is like perpetually getting off an airplane; it starts out civil, but it eventually goes lord of the flies. Luckily, it’s amazing enough to keep the ideas coming.
So the next time you become angry with a CitiBiker, remember CitiBikers are people, too, and he or she probably had to go to hell and back just to sit on that blue bomber. You will eventually learn to tolerate them like you do bums, honking, centennial storms, Times Square, sirens, tourists, NPR pledge drives, the Puerto Rican parade, scaffolding, and Hoboken residents. It’s part of the city now, accept it and move on.